So today I went to school but came home early because I had a horrible migraine and plus I just really didn't want to be there. So my mom came and got me and I was really glad that my mom actually came and picked me up. Though of course my migraine never went away today. And I took moutain dew and excedrin migraine which of course ALWAYS works but not for me obviously.
This night i'm a little better than last night. Still depressed but don't feel like crying. Which is a good thing I guess? I think i'm in love with my bestfriend (hes a guy) and it hurts so much because I don't think he feels the same about me. And everytime that I see him its like someone keeps stabbing me in the heart because its like seeing something you really want and knowing you can't have it.
I'm trying to be optimistic. About life. Maybe good things will happen if I try to be optimistic.
Have you talked to your best friend about it? I know its scary, but hiding it makes it worse, especially the wondering part =/
ReplyDeletei've tried talking to him about it. It's always the same thing like oh maybe something will happen. But like were bestfriends and FWB's (friends with benefits) which I know is bad but like I dont know. So like we kiss...alot. But we don't date. And we tell each other we love each other and what we like most about each other and hes always telling me i'm beautiful and he doesn't know what he'd do without me. Like it just really sucks.
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