I'm crying out for help and it's like i'm on mute cause no one can hear me. I need new friends. I need a new family. I need a new life. I'm so sick of being this way. I can't do this. I left early from school today because I was like a second away from crying my eyes out, I couldn't even focus. I texted my mom so I could go home because I couldn't take it anymore and my mom was like I guess i'll come pick you up but i don't believe you. I hate it when nobody believes me when i'm upset. Nobody cares about me, I get that. But can you at least try to get to know me or at least try to care? Because I don't think this is not for me or that this life is for me. Lately i've been thinking what would it be like if I wasn't there, like if I was dead. I think everyone would be a lot happier and no one would really miss me. They don't even seem to care about me now so it's like well whatever she's finally gone.
I know you're probably reading this and like oh this is just normal she's always doing this. And i'm sorry I keep doing blogs about my depression but it's getting worse and I don't know whatelse to do because I can't talk to my friends or family about this because they don't care and this is the only way I can get it out. Every night I cry and I pray to god that something good happens in my life because life sucks. But nope nothing happens. People who ruined my fucking life keep coming into my life and screwing up things and me. Its like everytime they say something to me I get knocked down on the ladder a little more. Soon there will be no more ladder and I will hit rock bottom. I just need something good to happen to knock me out of this mess.
Hey, i feel you. We all go through phases like that when we feel like nobody understands us and such. And in times like that nobody can help yourself but you. Stand up and fight for yourself dear. :)
ReplyDeleteI hope you'll feel better soon.
PS. You are pretty! And thanks for following me. :)
Honey, please, email me and we'll talk. I'll be your ears your shoulder to cry on. I care about you.
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the feeling of being completly alone is one of the worst things anyone can feel.Bringing yourself to that point is easy getting out of it by yourself is even harder. there are those who will listen with open ears.me and the other people who have commented here are willing to listen. I can safely say that I can relate
ReplyDeletethanks for following me dear.. i find your life interesting. actually at some point in my life i have felt misunderstood, well this feeling is slowly but successfully coming back.:(
ReplyDeletebut don't worry, this too shall pass! :)
thanks guys. i needed to hear that. this definitely the worst feeling in the world and hearing you guys say this gives me hope that things are going to change.
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