I've been lost but now i'm found

Wow I haven't written anything in a while. Sorry about that. But I gotta fill you in on what's going on with me. I started seeing a psychologist and they claimed me as depressed. Awesome. Also I thought suicidal thoughts for a while never acted on them but thought about them all day. They put me on anti-depressents but those haven't kicked in yet. I hope soon though because this rollercoaster is killing me. One week I'll be really sad and I don't want to do anything and then they are other days when I'm really happy. Oh well. I'm doing better.

Day 1

Day one- Seven things that cross your mind alot.

1. Suicide
2. Love
3. Justin and Kyle
4. My dad
5. My life
6. If i was imaginary for a day
7. the future

So well i'm doing this 7 day challenge thing and once 7 days is done ill do the 10 day and then the 30 day. I don't like cold weather and i don't like winter. it's 22 degrees here with a 20 mph wind chill. NO FREAKING WAY! Spring is my favorite season because its warm and thats when thunderstorms come back (:

Long time.

Woah i just realized i haven't written anything in like a month. I guess i've just been so busy. Well to catch everyone up i've been seeing a therapist for my depression and i've lost a couple of my friends because i tried to explain to them what was going on with me and they pretty much just laughed in my face and said i was faking so i dropped them. And in my family me and my mom have been pretty distant because what i talk about in therapy makes  me realize that we really don't have a good relationship so i don't really know.

So now you've been caught up. Things really havent changed all that much but in a way they have. Now i'm sitting here drinking dr. pepper and watching Jack frost which i used to love this movie when i was a kid so this is bringing a lot of memories back.

you don't know me.

I woke up late this morning :/ so it started out pretty lame for me. But today was pretty chill. Nothing worth writing about so i'm just going to put up pictures that I think are important. Oh and I was walking through the hallway this morning and some guy put on this girls locker will you got out with me and I thought it was so cute.

(i love you are 3 extremely strong words to say with so much meaning behind them)

(i'm trying to find my missing puzzle piece)

(I can't wait till I get married)

(I wish people would open me up to see the real me)

(I have no destination I go where life takes me)